Come back In my Heart

We never really even talked until he found out I liked him. I gave him my number and we talked for four months as friends. We wanted to get to know each other better because we had both been hurt before and we didn't wanna' go down that path again. He went out with this other gurl while he was still talkin' to me and after that ended, he still tried hookin' up with other girls.

I started to feel like he never even really liked me and that I was just there to be there. I wanted to just move on but my heart would never let me leave. We finally got together and we fell in love with each other but people kept makin' up stupid rumors and they would never stay out of our relationship. After a while, we started fighting every night and said some things neither of us really meant to say. We usually made up the same night but we still fought and that was leading our relationship in the wrong direction. I gave him every part of me and he gave me every part of him. My ex-boyfriend came to my house one night and it started a lot of problems in our relationship, (even though I didn't ask my ex to come!) Then, my boyfriend tried to get back at me for hurting him because I didn't have enough sense to tell my ex to leave.

I started cryin' every night and he told me his feelings had changed for me. He said part of him wanted to be with me and part of him didn't. I couldn't take it anymore, knowing I never made him happy, so one night I just called it quits. He told me there was no reason for us to talk anymore but not to ever forget that he loved me. I told him I will always love him no matter what happened, but now we can't even look at each other. All he ever says is that I'm the one that broke up with him. I feel so stupid for letting the love of my life go. If I could take all that back, I would do it in a heartbeat. I hate my life without him. I've been hurt before, but never like this. I pray that he can forgive me and give us another try. I need him. He is and always will be my everything. I guess the saying is true, "You never know what you have until it's gone."

I don't think he will ever forgive me for all of the stupid mistakes I've made. All I ever do now, is cry. I've tried being friends with him, but how can you be friends with someone if everytime you look at them, it makes you want them even more? I miss him more than anything and I will never forgive myself for letting him go. There is a LovePoetry poem that I really identify with. It is  by Brandi Michelle Lamb.

I'm not the same person I used to be. I'm never happy and all I can ever think about are the good memories that we made together. I never will be happy with the decision that I made to give up our relationship. We could have worked through this and he would still be a part of my everyday life! He was my blessing from God.

Never give up on what you truly love because true love never dies! Don't listen to anyone or anything but your own heart. I promise, if you truly love the person you'll regret letting them go because life without love is no life at all.............................